''rush hour'' 4...

today...i almost late so i have to rush~i looked for Teresa but the people needed is KarMan actually!of course!she will help me to put my illegal stuffs(cellphone,long-T and jeans) into her car...then,i returned to class quickly to put my bag with PauLee~omg!i have to help ZhuJun to ask extra ribbon from EeTing~so i rush again!but she said she got no extra ribbon and i distrust her because i borrowed previously~although i get confused for a while,but i can't do anything~i really quite busy for this early morning!suddenly the guy,OSH-who was becoming Abraham's Enemy now,asking whose ribbon on his hand?i got an idea and try to get it to ZhuJun but failed~SuatYih continued to convince him and she got it!so my burden less already!haha!SzeYan passed me a pack of cocuriculum card and asked me to distribute it~but bell rings already!so i just passed(liked throw) it to a prefect whom i didn't know him totally~afterward,another prefect looking for me suddenly!he said he can't open the diskette and asked me to send him by mail!i was weird with his email address-dari USJ Jack...haha!ok,i'll find Fleming later~i passed the messages to her and she said she want to get back her plastic bag which was bought it from Korea!!!it's Korea!wow!so good...i was envying that time!!!so,i was rushing again to look for that prefect to get back her plastic bag~really tired and hot!it's MUET period and Pn.Khoon said we'll doing 'Speaking'!i get shocked!!!but she said not break into group...so it's unformal speaking only!i prepared but times flies so we'll continue next Monday~she announced a bad news to us~we'll having a new timetable again~our schooling period was longer till 4.30pm everyday except Friday(Muslim)!!!omg!!!why want to torture us!!!we just left 4 months only and we'll get free very soon!!!haiz~moreover,it's for Form 6 only!!!fainting...but i can't do anything!!!then and then,then and then...yeah!finally,the bell rings then our schooling period was over!i just wait for this moment only...why?because we'll having our 1st time to sing k together(classmates) at Greenbox with student price!it's has been a long period that i didn't go to sing k already~i sang till my voice 'broken'!!!haha~very excited!!!and we went to take 'big head' photo and i was enjoying because i didn't make it for real since 4 years ago~just cost me RM3.50 plus RM10.30,the charges for singing~so just around RM15 ONLY~

sorry!

yup...chinese singing competition's audition was held today...i still can't decide whether i want to participate or not!my classmates support me to go and i also practice a lot...i can't choose which song that i want to sing and this make me get into trouble...actually i wish i have partner but Teresa promised with Moon first so i can't do anything...i knew her situation and hope she don't feel guilty?haha...finally,i decided what song to sing...the title is Ideal Lover by Rainie Yang!i sang this song with Carmen Mak 2 years ago during audition for Confucian Idol~this song quite easy to sing so i got more confidence to sing!but~i made my classmates dissapointed on me because i was not dare to sing in front of a lot of people...i sat there and they tried to force me to take part!but,i still reject it till the end!i'll sing with them tomorrow in Greenbox?they want to punish me by treat them the charges of sing k...omg!i got no money...how?haiz...what can i do?i was surprised that my junior sang well in MBS Idol~and i envy her audacity!why i can't deal with my nervous!!!this is my weak point!!!i found that i should be a leader in future after my mum did some test by using my birthday according the Lunar calendar.and i was confused with it since i'm just a follower all the time!although i'm the eldest in the family and i'm a scout,but i still failed to be a leader~i just try to avoid from the problems...i know i should try first in the beginning!ok la...i was upset and i don't want to continue already~congratulations to Teresa,she won the Best Female Senior and entered the final of the competition!i realised that there are a recycle in our destiny and i got it from Teresa's experiences!!!

no apologies!

a talk was launched today from 8.10am(after chapel class) till 1.50pm++...the title was 'NO APOLOGIES'-the truth about life,love and sex~the lecturer called Peter and his assistant,Jessica and Chloe.this talk was about how to differentiate love and sex!a video played and there were some interviews among males and females.they said they were regret after having sex with bf or the guy said he was guilty to destroy the ladies future life!since he can't control himself（he has more than 30 sex experiences），he caused some ladies suffer in STD(sexual transmitted disease)!just because of that few of minutes,he felt guilty and regret for a life time!but,NO USE!any compensation also no use!while the foolish lady said she has killed her baby because she has no abstinence last time!in short!we must avoid from this matter although we are curious...and we have to try to not going too far(just holding hands and simple goodnight kiss)if we have relationship with guys.but,in my opinion,how about hug?maybe i love to hug with people...a workbook was given to us and i think i'll put aside only.haha!it's hard when Chloe asked me to write down my future goals!i still blur and i was waiting to have fun during that time but she just asked us to answer the questions!i wish my cooking skills and English skills could be improved next year,i can bring my mum and brother to travel(Hong Kong,Korea,Australia...and my favourite-Maldives!)in 3 years!i think i want to work in a big firm liked LG,SAMSUNG,SONY and so on...in 5 years!i'll do investment liked buy assets-house!i got this idea from my Economy teacher!she still regret because she has made a wrong decision last time-let go a house and the value was on the rise up to RM300k now!while in 8 years,i'll get married?haha!i recall something-Chloe said she has a female friend and a male friend.they got married and having their 1st kiss on their wedding day!!!it sounds impossible but it's true!so,it's depends on yourself!anything is possible if you can control yourself wisely!

after the talk,it's time to dismiss!since my neighbour have a meeting later,then i have to go home myself lo...i very angry!!!during the time i was waiting for the bus!i hate the local bus service!!!although i had make complaints!it didn't works!!!so,i hoping for get a car no matter is branded or made in Malaysia...

shocked~

last Thursday,i watched Transformers-Revenge of The Fallen with Teresa!what a wonderful movie~i quite disappointed for we can't watch the beginning!but i'll watch it later through funshion.com!we intend to watch 'Drag me to Hell' firstly but since we can't match with the time so we chose Transformers!and i was so excited & enjoy the movie!of course!i want to mention here that i was having 'Teppanyaki' as my lunch!because it was my 1st time only...so poor!already 19 years old but just ate it!i ordered a set same with Teresa and it was the cheapest?RM15...i love to drink the soup,eat the bean sprouts!because the soup not salty as well while the bean sprouts was tasty and refreshing!!!we were rushing to finish our lunch as fast as possible so that we can watch the movie on time!but,we failed to do so in the end!come back to the movie...i really upset when the Optimus Prime died but luckily it 'reborn' later!i was sad when only Optimus fighting there and beat by Megatron and others!!!i realised at the same time that human power was so weak!in short!i love this movie and i wish to watch the previous one!i was misunderstanding this movie before that i think only for boys...then and then,Teresa brought me walked into the 'MCKY' to buy Ai Xing a birthday gift...she bought her a hp rope~it costs RM50...i considered it was very expensive!!!for me,i prefer to buy shirt,bag or shoes~i was very happy for that day and thanks for fetch me home,Teresa!how great she was!haha!

yup,is Friday...we were surprised during Maths lesson because the explosion of lightbulb suddenly and caused the other classrooms out of electricity!some smelly smoke came out and we were hate that flavor!so we covered our nose and mouth with handkerchief immediately!we did nothing during PA lesson and we went to Centenary Room for our Account lesson!since there have air-conditioners,we were enjoying but the weather turned to rainy afternoon so we were very cold!!!i have to stay back to finish my RM and RP today as i still confused in the morning whether i want to stay back or not!but there's no choice during the rainy afternoon!we did our RM/RP in a special room and a male junior followed Suat Yih to enter our room!!!then,that junior which is L6P and he was from Confucian,was tortured by us with a group of 6 girls!Suat Yih keep on talking nonsense and he turned to me and asked for my signature!but,i won't give him easily!i gave him a tough task-write my favourite idol,2 of the TVXQ's members name in Korean!i also wondering why i tortured him so much.but the task was given and he also didn't reject me!afterwards,he never find me anymore!haha!when i reached home,i switched on the tv and it's 8 E-NEWS live!the host asked some opinions for the case happened...i still realised that it's bad news from the 'King of Pop'-Michael Joseph Jackson!he was passed away because of heart-attacked!it's happened too suddenly!he is just 50 of age but unfortunately he can't be save after an hour of rescue!my mum was upset with this bad news because he is my mum's idol!i think the fans from all of the countries were sad and can't accept it!they said he is hiding...he is moved to other place for freedom...hope they don't be so crazy and stay calm!

we watched his concert on 8TV till the lately night on Saturday!

Sunday-i played 'War Game' with my scout friends...it costs RM 60 and i think the price still ok because Kim told me is RM75 previously.the gun called 'marker' is quite heavy(made my muscle pain today!)!i didn't get shooted but i think i shooted some people~Kim was get shooted near her neck and i think it's very painful!!!we played for 4 games and i was Team A which equalized the marks to 2-2 in the end!later,it's 5th game for girls to take part!i shooted Bee Nah and others...i felt guilty but i didn't say sorry to her!Kim was the bravest member among girls...we having 100 plus and Dominos Pizza to produce some energy?haha!we having a briefing by Hon Kuan about 45 minutes...after we dismissed,i took LRT and i met Chooi San...i gave some advises to her about her Form 6 life~i suggested that she stopped and continue her studies in college.if i have the 2nd chance,i'll not choosing to study Form 6!!!i was very scared when i reached the bus stop because it's dark and none of the person waiting for the bus there!i was the only one!my mum made me more scared and suddenly an insane lady passed by the bus stop!!!i had no idea and i forced to go to the mamak stall and wait for my uncle to fetch me!then and then,they brought me to eat 'Curry Fish-head' as dinner.i arrived home at 10pm and i watched 'Beauty Cookies' for entertainment after i was busy for almost whole day！

it's time to reduce expenditure!

due to some critical condition,especially the financial problem,my family were needed to save money and reduce the expenditure month-by-month.it's good for me in rel if the internet services,Astro On Demand,charges for take care of brother will be suspended soon.i totally agree with these ideas in order to let me pay more attention on my studies and my toughest exam in my life which is STPM,will coming soon as fast as lightning.Haha!it's sound too exaggerated but times really flies without our realization.but,i'll fight until the STPM period over and i'll work for next 3 till 6 months while waiting the result or notification letter...this result determine my future but it's hard to choose if the government send me to the university that is far from my area.just like the seniors,they were facing this situation now and hard to make decision.so,i asked mum and she said she prefer i stay in KL and start to work.i can study and work at the same time or work for some years then continue to study.in my opinion,if i have the luck to enter local university,i'll going too no matter the location is far or nearby my area.this can training me to be independent and free of nagging from mum and even brother!haha!i also worry about him since he always ignoring me nowadays.the elder i am,the more i have to think.when i turn into adult officially-21 years old,i wish i am a person who mature so that can help mum and others.but,i quite childish although i am 19 now.i had a lot of contradictions because my horoscope is Gemini!!!Gambateh!

i am going to participate in the Form 6 Telematch next week!of course,it's a badminton tournament...i will take part in women singles and mixed doubles!!!wish i can get the title again soon!hehe!i will be watching a movie whether is 'Transformers 2' or 'Drag me to Hell'...it's excited!!!haiz...spend money again!'Harry Potter' also coming soon!my wallet become thinner and thinner!

what a wonderful birthday celebration!

performing birthday song?of course not!
guess what?hehe!
having ice-cream ''cakes''
bbqueing...
make some wishes
hehe!nice nice pose!
first of all,i would like to say thanks till infinity to my friends!!!they all were very nice!i was so great to know them...i was celebrating my 19th birthday for twice!!!maybe thrice later?haha...i can't express well at here!but,i think they all knew,we have the same opinion...just keep in heart!i had been celebrate with Siew Ling's birthday on 9th June,which was during holidays period...i sang with Teresa in the morning...just 2 person only!so we enjoyed very much!later,i joint them to have lunch at Bar-B-Q Plaza!it's considered cheap and of course,the food was delicious!!!after that,we started to celebrate birthday at 10th floor at Times Square!no wonder some people dissappeared suddenly!and our cake were 2 boxes of ice-cream in yam and chocolate flavor!we all grabbing the ice-cream by spoon and put into mouth!this showed we were closed with each other!haha!consequently,Suat Yih took out my present from a lousy plastic bag...omg!the present wrapped with newspaper!haha!this idea not bad because reuse & recycle!i knew it's a fashion bag~Suat Yih said she went to PWTC's area purposely to buy this bag to me!wow!so touch!sob sob...

0617...

i was extremely exited today since it's my birthday!Kim made me some blueberry muffins!!!so touch!the muffins were delicious!i received them during recess time!then,i shared my happiness with classmates!the 8 girls shared a muffin while Caleb,ate a muffin!he didn't shared with other boys,maybe it's embarrass to share with boys...i really enjoyed this short period!after double period of Maths,schooling time was over!Pau Lee gave me a A4-size paper!a TVXQ's picture that they carried a gift each other(to me),my favourite idol was printed and my face included!of course,the page behind was filled with my wonderful classmates wishes!some of their wishes very funny~some of the wishes,i really need it!thanks!!!after that,i intend to go to Times Square to join my secondary school good friends and a special guest-from my primary school!(i knew it when we met accidentally at toilet)...but i was stopped by my personal junior-Jol Ann,she asked for my signature...since it's my birthday,i gave her straightly!while other juniors,asked me to let them know their personal senior...of course,i wouldn't let them know so easily!i asked them to find themselves...haha!then and then i reached TS and suggested to have lunch at Sushi King!the set that i ordered was extremely delicious!it's not so cheap but i willing to pay(they treat me^^)...the service staff sent the wonderful-looked cake to our table and they sang birthday song to me!i was very happy!the cake bought from BreadHistory...so it's delicious!after some process,i acted some funny pose and let Michele to take photographs...they bought me a bad which was in shoe-shaped!i was a bit worry because i don't know how to bring this type of bag to shop...i'll try in future!!!thanks!!!it's so touch!!!

suffering?

yup...always suffer...exams,financial problem and more!

wtf!i was very upset for my cellphone!it aged 3 years?not sure...when i bought it,i quite love it but now!hacked by virus...it's all my fault!i ignored my mum's advises so i hav to deal it myself!she advised me many times so tat i do not connect the phone with computer!since the computer also hacked by virus already!but!i hav to upgrade the stuff into my phone!if not,i can't get entertain...

and now...my pc broke down...something liked re-format itself!all the things going to break down!why??all occurred at the same time!damn hate tiz!so,my mum decide to buy a new notebook?may it be?haiz...i wish to buy a lot of things...cellphone(touch screen),LCD,camera...all also electronic appliances...i think i addicted with these type of things...so i should work for the company which related to my special interest?haha!a bit happy bcoz liked find out my way!

then,it's financial problem...bcoz of the house loan!!!debt for 10 years!terrible!!!all these unfortunate cases happened due to a guy!this guy is extremely bad!horrible!terrible!but he hav relationship wif me...i can't describe him and what i know is continue to hate him forever!or i should ignore his existant!ok!it's enough!stop to think about this guy!can't even type in 500 words!must exceed 1000 words...

omg!i saw a cellphone and in my opinion,i should buy because well functioning and looking nice!it's SAMSUNG F480!RM838-considered cheap because it's limited edition-pink colour!!!i strongly wish to buy it!!!God!please help me!!!since my phone already hacked by virus!but i got no money...bankrupt already!!!

holidays!

finally,the holidays just reached!exited but at the same time,is boring too...
FRIDAY-i went to PWTC(near by) for shopping with classmates~since May Kay said the things are selling at cheap price but have to buy a lot...at least half of dozen...that's why we have a group people of six girls ''shopping team''...haha!we having ''pan mee'' as lunch while waiting the team leader-May Kay to join us...the ''pan mee'' was different with others so i like it and wish to eat again in future!then,we started our tour...
the building have >7 floors...and we were very tired!because exams just finished...there are selling watches,bags,shirts and so on...the watches are the most to be displayed there...
we keep on walking and walking,i bought 2 t-shirts(RM25),a watch(RM5),3 necklaces(RM7)...i think the shirts are selling at market price,nothing special...the watch and necklaces,i felt very greatful because very cheap!!!
SATURDAY-i did nothing in the morning till afternoon...i just waiting the time gone...while i waiting the time gone,i watched ASQ 2009!this show quite nice and i wish to take part but i scare to stand in front of people...i prefer to sing k with my beloved friends...haha^^time flies...it's 3pm so i did my mask and took bath!i wore my new-bought shirt which was pink with Bape...i got no money and i was scolded by mum when i asked her...i felt guilty what i has promised her yesterday~but i didn't bother it since rushing of time!i have to take bus and LRT to get the place we meet and i hope i'll not late!then and then...i reached Pandan Indah's LRT Station and i met Suat Yih!wow!there was a fate between us!she was returned from tuition actually...she threw the tags to me and asked me to give to Kar Chun!omg!Michele haven't get there yet!after she arrived,she gave us a shock!she has a sexiest look we never seen before!haha!although just a singlet with tube inside!
then and then,we started to put on the fire and we were trying very hard!thanks God!we success in the end!the ingredients were satay(chicken and beef),sausages,fish,fried rice and mee,chicken wings and more!there were tasty!we having a lot of fun:captured many photos and act some funny pose...mum called so i have to go!i reached home about 11.30pm(very early compared to others)
SUNDAY-nothing special but was a surprise to mum,me and brother!!!uncle(mum's brother) was preparing to be father and groom soon!the bride has pregnant for 4 months!shocked!!!we known only now!their enrollment will be on 9th of June!but the process liked a bit messy!something is complicated inside and can't deal it in a rush!when we sleeping,brother's leg very pain!i think maybe he walked a lot today...he has this problem since some years ago!maybe his leg's bone ''enlonging''!
today-quite boring too...i watched the movie which fully-downloaded from the website!Anacondas-Trail of Blood!or Anacondas 4...the snake still very long and someone still finding the serum to heal his bone cancer~the expenditure has reached the peak of 50 million dollars~the guy asked other guys to kill the scientists with an offer of 1 million dollars!the background happened in grove and i recalled that i was getting into grove/jungle previously during scout activities!it's quite scary!just imagine...(movie)-you don't know what is going to happen next and something is starring you for hunting without your notification...ok la...is enough!having lunch now...

facing exams...

yup...i was facing exams these 2 weeks so i din do my blogging~
but,2day is Friday so it's day to let me having short break!
i realised that i was always think negatively during exams period!because it's negative ard at the beginning so it'll become more negative in the end!!!omg...
i can't deal with my stubborn!this is my weakest point!
i always dreaming for my future life but i din work hard for it!
as my mum also facing some financial problems,i was scolded by her yesterday!i knew she talk something purposely to me!she said everything is possible when you willing to sacrifice and of course,work hard!our destiny are in ours hand!what you are doing right or wrong,the God knows and good or bad retribution will happen to you in the end!
as i was always envying people-Wow!she bought a cellphone with various function and expensive!,Wow!she can buy this and that...my mum told me,i could do it also!we dunno the story behind!our life is simple,but is happy then enough!anything may come to you next minute...what for we always envy them for their luxurious lifestyle??
haha!i'm not going to type out all the things here...since i got other things to write!
lower sixes entered and some of my friends observed them!they said they were arrogance?beautiful?handsome?and so on!the most surpriseful thing is our junior class only got 9 people!omg...not even reached 10!i heard another news that 2 of them may go to other college,so only 7!then 2 people of my class share a junior!this option just nice!
ok la...nothing to type!
ah!it's pleasure for me because i had chance to brunch with my best friend-Teresa this afternoon!both of us having the same meal-nasi lemak with black tea!the nasi mixed with tea while cooking!so the rice smells aroma!but the curry sauce decreased!it's not enough for me because the chickens didn't absord the sauce!so,it's dry and i had no idea so i just drank the black tea!
i want to say thank you,my friends!May Kay taught me how to change the WMA/FLV file to MP3 /3GP by downloading the application/software!besides,i also downloaded the themes creator through email from Sony Ericsson!both of the applications were nice to use!i felt greatful!!!i can convert the video-Lee Yong Dae sang song which was FLV file to 3GP file now!i saved it in my cellphone!!!i can view it everytime i want!!!of course,i also created a lot of his themes!!!i was using it right now!!!
yeah~hahaha!the Maths paper 1 extremely hard!!!i sure fail!sorry!my grandmum,mum,aunties...y the form 6's maths so hard?my brain can't function well during the time doing maths!!!y?y?y?
finally,the championship of Sudirman Cup 2009 still belongs to China team!they were very strong!and my poor Yong Dae was playing 6 matches!he was fighting until the last point but useless because his partner in mixed doubles,made a lot of errors!she always the main factor to make Yong Dae lost the match!while mens doubles,he was tired already!but he still played well although he made some errors easily!
anyway!he is my idol now!my pc have a lot of his documents!
i wish Malaysian fans can make a fans club/website for him!!!i will become active member for sure!!!

may I crazy for once/twice/thrice?or more than that!

Birthday Star!!!

me,Bnah n Samantha!(S bought a new hp-N95!)[envying...]
this photo looks funny!
~Friendship~Wei Luen leh?
i still continue to complaint!!!
my life is boring everyday!!!
but luckily,yesterday i had a chance to celebrate my fren's birthday!so,i can hang out with my lovely frens!!!i was so exited!!!thanks God!
i was very tired because i played badminton in the afternoon!then i missed the bus due to my consumption on a birthday card!it's quite hard to choose the best among other cards...the card i bought same wif my classmate's birthday card!it's the cutest and quite cheap for it's design!
when i reached Salak Selatan Bus Station,i saw the U48 that i missed juz now!!!i felt fortunately in a sudden!i recalled i was blamming the unfair of God,but now,i realized that my destiny not that poor...yeah!finally i arrived home!it's almost 7pm~then i went to my room quickly to check whether i had receive Michele's message...wow!she said we met at 7pm!walao ye...impossible!there were something happened afterwards...the Birthday Star called me for more than 10 times,but i can't received due to the Digi and Maxis's network not function well since i live in a place almost the summit of the hill~finally i received and she said her bf want to use toilet!so i asked for permission from mum...(remind me that this Sunday is Mother's Day,what should I do?)after that,we went to Sri Petaling but dog dunno how to get there!ok lo...i pointed to him~(i found the reason for reached my house lately,go through wrong roads n turned a big round n get back to my area)...
v met at the T-junction and v 'jam' into dog's car to go to restaurant named ''Tong Chi Dao''!since it's a ''tong sui'' restaurant,i ordered 'Tahini'(sesame paste) and curry chicken rice!i quite enjoyed and full!
times flies!it's 10.15pm and v paid bills...v went to OYS house to cut cakes...Michele,Bnah n Samantha bought Black Forest which was my opinion!we stayed till 11pm something then going home!
so,that's all for yesterday!
today,i went to chapel class as usual with Li Wah~it's damn hot!so i suggested to go church because there were a lot of air cond...but she said she killed a rat yesterday so she wanted to pray...so,i went for Buddhism~she told me something n i also talk my troubles to her...later,the bell rang n v returned to class...i started to low mood...i got stress for many things!my assignment(photoshop),mid-term exams,families and so on!my condition is always upset inside but smiles outside!

erm...scouting!

see carefully!
pizzas as birthday cakes~
last Saturday i went to Stadium Negara for my 1st time to duty as a scout rover!it's a large function because it's Centenary Celebration of the Scouts Association of Malaysia!i was proud of it!!!i reached there around 7am by uncle's Nissan X-trail!haha!long period that i didn't take a ride by it!i saw a lot of scouts gather at the main entrance but when i called my leader-Boon Leong,he asked me to go to the back of the stadium~i felt weird but of course i need to follow his intruction!it's about 200m from the front to back~moreover,the road was quiet and dark so i scared!then i saw a F6 girl student and i followed her parallely...i was asked to enter a team for sending scouts to their own place to have a seat~it's arranged well state by state~3 hours later!yes!i'm correct!the different types of scouts were entering the stadium!the scouts from Pahang,Terengganu were the earliest!they brought the state flag too~finally the stadium almost fulled by scouts and waiting for the guests of honour to come~they were Y.A.B Tun Abdullah bin Hj. Ahmad Badawi and more...of course,he gave a speech about 20 minutes!half of his speech,he coughed for twice~he should take care himself!don't enjoy too much suddenly!haha!actually that day nothing special happened!quite boring and tired because i standing for 5 or 6 hours!!!my objective can't succeeded because the souvenirs that selling there were same with last year!!!
i saw rainbow last evening when i having dinner with families at Tmn Desa!the rainbow just appeared for 15 minutes only!!!today i celebrated classmate's birthday-Ee Ting with classmates~we having lunch at KFC!i was a bit happy for it~i ordered a plate of chicken rice but without chicken because lack of chicken so i need to wait the waiter to send it to me!it's considered cheap-RM5.90(before tax),RM6.20(after tax) and grouped into the promotion ''Jom Jimat''!later i started to eat but it's weird because the plate have rice and salad only!afterwards my chicken ''came''~it's quite big as i ate before and it's smaller than the consequent's chicken...yeah~i think my meal became delicious in a sudden!haha!we started to celebrate Ee Ting's birthday right after we finished the meals~i was shocked and surprised when i knew that her birthday cake was KFC mashed potato!i think Ee Ting may felt unhappy(just my opinion)...i think birthday cake is playing an important role during a birthday celebration!a straw was used as candle and it's sticking into the mashed potato!oh my God!!!i had experienced the same(quite)situation previously!my friends used 4 plates of pizza as cake but they sticked real candles into them~finally,i went to home by bus and unfortunately it's heavy rain outside!!!but U48 was coming quickly after i waited for 10 minutes!thanks God!

是的...我在自甘堕落？

正所谓“少年不识愁滋味，为赋新茨抢说愁”！
我就是这个人啦！整天都在忧忧愁愁的过日子！明明就是无所事事嘛！其实我是有很多东西要做的，可是我实在太懒惰了，所以就一直拖，拖，拖！朋友们都羡慕我有多余的时间，可是我就用在无谓的东西身上！
属马的我就是那么地固执！又爱转牛角尖！再加上我是双子座！真是太乱了！
今天真得超晒的！可是我就不愿意去拿出雨伞来用！偏偏走去大老远，大概步行20分钟吧！其实也不太远啦，只是太久没走那么远的路！这令我想起以前中一和二的时候，巴士站与外婆家的距离和这个应该不相上下吧！我觉得那时的我还满勤劳的！而伟大的外婆就会撑伞陪我走那段路！（是每天哦！）
前天吃了自己觉得很久没吃的没营养食物！就是皮萨也！我当然吃得津津有味啦！
虽然自己不满意自己的身材，但美食当前，我实在受不了诱惑！（进入社会一定要小心了！）结果就花掉了整三十令吉！
不晓得是星期几了，我亲自下出煮意大利面！哈哈！的确实很容易的！但不够软~由于没买到酱料，所以就随便的放了番茄和辣椒酱！味道果然有点奇怪！
最近的我很想去血拼一番！但荷包有点缩水~很想买的是包包和鞋子！虽然已经有不少了~嘻嘻！应为过时了！
这个拜六我会出席马来西亚童军成立一百周年的庆典咧！自己觉得还满光荣的！哈哈！卸任首相阿都拉和敦马哈迪医生都会在当天出席（不知真还是假），现任首相嘛？不懂~可能现场有很多美女就有他的份吧？哈哈！
我看我应该要带一些钱去才行，因为有卖纪念品嘛！我一定要买呀！！！一百年一次哦！要不然下一个一百年我会身在何处呢？要不天堂，要不就地狱？

just as usual...but recall something~

happy period was passing quickly while the miserable period is nearing again-mid-year exams...
i still the same,did procastination again!
let's do not talk about this~it'll be very boring!
i just waiting this Saturday to have fun with my friends-scouting with them as my former school having campfire~
i was recalling my sad memories about 4 years ago~17 of April,right on date the matters happened!
maybe it was my fault!what a great fault!
i was the one who always ''menyakit hati'' of grandpa~i ''sengaja'' watch the tv programme till ''lewat malam'' because i was lazy to do my homeworks!so,he scolded me but i didn't listen!
16th of April,i still did the same thing...but i slept at around 12 something~then i felt wanna eat icer-cream so i opened the refrigerator and used the spoon to grab it!unfortunately,grandpa heard this sound and he came out and scolded me again!but,i hide myself immediately![ps:i was 14 years old]still childish!afterwards i returned to bedroom and slept!an hour later,uncle knocked my door and he found that grandpa was fall down!all of us got panic and shocked!
oh my God!!!heart-attacked!!!he passed away~1 something in the morning of 17th April!
if i was not mistaken,my uncle blammed on me for a while!i felt very guilty!!!i damn hate myself~all of us knew that he told us his healthy was turning to green light!
haiz...after this,my family occurred a lot of problems~
my uncle facing mental problems,my mum and my aunt have health problem...moreover,grandma became lonely!her face's happiness liked disappeared in sudden!
come back to nowadays...i always think i am the most miserable people in the world because STPM is a huge challenge!i still have 8 to 9 months for having suffer!WTF...
all things was my fault!!!i didn't manage my timetable,i didn't work hard,i didn't implement my duties as a student/daughter...
so,i wish i'll have fun tomorrow during campfire!and before scouting,i'll going to sing k!!!haha!^^

foods especially junk foods...very attractive!

since i was in form 6...i felt my life was struggling...
i can't breathe...stress is continuing enter my mind!
when holidays came,i never study!i just keep on playing and surfing internet!
although i knew the result,but i still stubborn and didn't face it!
then,i always nothing to do in the school so i will go back home right after schooling period!
what a boring life~
what i'm thinking is i wanna reenjoy my life!
the idea is i try many types of food!
my favourite:donuts,dumplings,cakes(chocolate),dim sum...
so i nid to go to have buffet in Jogoya!!!
but unfortunately,it's quite expensive and my friends can't cooperate with my timetable!
damn miserable...
it's nevermind!
i then finding other places in Petaling Street,i knew that is a place also have many foods...
i found finally!i like the almond tart,coconut tart,kaya cakes and so on...
i'll go to Central Market's King's to buy some cakes!!!
a very long period i never eat!
the great thing is i'll having my lunch with my friends at Pizza Hut!Hooray!!!
when i think about the mushroom soap,my saliva produced a lot!haha!!!
i hope i can enjoy and having a lot of fun today!!!
moreover,i'll swim at my friend's condo's swimming pool!
that's the time for me to release my fat cells?

新官上任！但没三把火...

终于，Pak Lah当了那五年多的首相~无可否认，他应该是个很慈祥的爷爷~看起来很善良的样子！
所以，他就那么快被取代了！他卸任后，日子可是很无忧无虑的呢！（超羡慕）...大家都说他在家摇脚~其实，少了那些重任，人也更轻松而且没那么快老！哈哈！
然后，就轮到纳吉上任了！一上任后，他就释放那十三位被内安法令扣留的人~真的大发慈悲！因为这条罪是无限期扣留的！过后还跑去茨厂街！
老师告诉我们一个关于他的笑话！说他看到美女就好像猪八戒那样流口水！（不是真的流啦）
就目不转睛！这令我联想到蒙古女郎的那件事！好像是很黑暗的事！
最近的我和小雪的感情越来越好！可能我俩的趣味相投！而且懒惰？上个拜五还lepak到七点多才回到家！很久没试过了！怎知竟然在巴士上看到那位很拽的男生！真得很讨厌他的！虽然他是帅啦！
而且有白！突然觉得他越来越像金在中了！
因为KBS有播韩版的花样男子，造成我现在越来越喜欢SS501里的金圭钟，许永生和金贤重咯！天哪！要把我给累坏了！喜欢那么多的韩国人！我只有一颗心却要分给整十个人！如果可以的话，我只分给学业就好啦！(impossible)^^

shocked~haha^^

finally,sukan saringan can be held today~
luckily i didn't late to school~if i late another 20 seconds,then the bell rings~
today's chapel class quite bore...a speech about Biology?i think la...
almost the students didn't listen to lecturer~they just waiting the time to pass and participate in the sukan~besides,today was the 1st time that i took a seat with Teresa after a lot of weeks~
of course,she told me something and i shocked!the people's behaviour not judge by his/her face~
although someone with you for >5 years,he/she still not to be trusted!she sure very disappointed and sad~haiz!but i think i was not that kind of people la~who knows in future?
after 1st period,our sukan launched!then i shocked because i participated for 2 events suddenly~i guess i participated in lontar peluru only!then my confidence decreased a few~i can't run!i really can't!!!i tried to escape from it but later,i just followed my destiny~haha!i made contradiction again.
i was a few disappointed for i failed in the lontar peluru!my technique was wrong~May Kay said teacher should tell us but the teacher didn't!i thought she was quite upset with it!
i returned to terrace and continue chat with Teresa~
chatting and chatting~
we having our breakfast together~i saw a guy very miserable~because he bear his big bag and carried the plate but no place for him to sit~but just a while,he then sat~
i got high jump!but i missed it because someone told me it has been done~
i went to field with someone and checked!OMG!we still need to jump!
after i jumped for 3 times(practice),teacher said official started!OMG!they guys were there!especially green-T!it was damn embarrassing!but,green-T also didn't bother me de la,i think!then a beauty jumped and i saw green-T starred at her~if i can jumped,then may be it'll happen on me~consequently,was my turn to run 200 metres...only 2 lanes were used to be run~
means 2 people run on same time~i ensure i lost!but i tried my best la~somemore they said my result not bad!haha!chuckled myself~i was enjoying to run!!!may be only a people in front of me~no pressure~
finally and finally,schooling hours finished!hooray!my lucky number-531,not yet return to my captain~may be tomorrow~i went back home by friend's mother's car again...i saw green-T was in the primary school~chatting with friends~but i got to go~haiz~only once to wait with green-T...may be will getting more chances in future??haha!

exams result are terrible

finally,the maths paper has been distributed to us...

then i got a low low low marks...haiz!

i found that i made a lot of mistake!was it an excuse for myself?

but i really think that i can get more 10 marks~

sorry and regret...

grandma help me to pay the tuition fees!it was expensive!

but...i still failed my maths~how to face with her?

besides,tutor said the questions were easy!and now...when he see my paper,sure i was embarrassing myself only!

all things were my fault~

ah~struggling everyday!

i love to watch Boys over flowers-korean meteor garden!

but i thought the relationship between Jandi and Jihu better~they liked take care each other~

Jandi and Junpyo,i can't feel their love~

i wish i can watch this drama on weekdays,not weekend!KBS,please la...

when all my friends will be free?!i just want to hang out with them for 3/4 hours only!

i want to release my stress ma~watch movie,bowling,sing k...but lack of money lo!

i'll try to get money if got any activities!

earth weather often changed~

Monday was a sunshine day but Tuesday was a rainy day~both also apply for whole day~

a bit horrible!1st time for me to paste sunblock but it was rainy day~

haha!

hope my skin can recover as soon as possible after using Nano!!!

it's cost cheaply!only RM15.90-small boxes la of course!got sunblock with spf50,snow wash,renewal exfoliator for polishing and cell moist whitenor...

i went to Parliament yesterday!the debate between DAP of Batu Gajah and Yang DiPertua was quite interesting~they ''discuss'' about the rang undang-undang for cukai pendapatan~the attendance was poor~maybe because of others going to prepare for the AGM UMNO~

an hour later,we moved to Dewan Negara!it was smaller compared to Dewan Rakyat which contained 222 chairs!then we started our ask and answer period!it was quite noisy!

Pn.Victoria scolded us because we laughed to our Form 6 Society's teacher advisor,Mr.Lee who asked a question that we thought it was as simple as well~she said our behaviour were damn terrible compared to the badges previously~haiz!so sad!but i agree with her la!nowadays,the teenagers act liked an adult,they thought they are ''biggest''!they did something so insane but they think it was cool!died la~actually they still childish!

my brother also liked these guys~but he'll listen to us in the end!but i think when he grow more,he'll not listen to us anymore~this is what i always worry about!

there are some of his ''talent'' above~

to my beloved mum~u r the greatest!

i know...u were suffer for more than 10 years previously~
i know...u were fighting urself in many bad situation~
i know...u were trying to give all the best for us although u lack of money~liked ASTRO & INTERNET SERVICES~
i know...u were smiling always on ur face but u may be upset in ur heart~
i know...i was always disappointing u & others~
i know...i was too stubborn in many situations~
i know...i was making a lot of complaint on u & Ah Chun~
i know...i was too lazy~always waiting for regret and never trying to do my best~
but...u were the one who caring me always~
but...u were trying to cheer me up always~
but...u were still counselling me always~
but...u were still doing many things silently~
YOU JUST KEEP ALL INSIDE YOUR HEART...YOU DIDN'T RELEASE THEM TO US...
OH MY GOD!YOU WERE TOO GREAT!YOU ALREADY A MOST SUCCESSFUL MOTHER~YOU,ONLY YOU...PLEASE FORGIVE MY FAULT AND ALL THE BAD THINGS I HAD DONE PREVIOUSLY...
I REALLY HOPE YOU CAN STAY HAPPILY ALL THE TIME~NOT ONLY OUTSIDE,BUT INSIDE ALSO!I WISH ALL THE BEST FOR YOU IN FUTURE~I CAN'T PROMISE ANYTHING TO YOU...SORRY FOR THAT!
LAST...WITH MY SINCERE HEART~I WOULD LIKE TO SAY ''I LOVE YOU,MUM'' TO YOU~^O^

yeah!exams finished~

finally...after i suffered for 10 days...the exams were ended...haha!
but,when i think about the exams in future,i really get panic...because too much of chapters to study and memorise...it was needed!
today's econ and muet papers were considered as easy as well...because i can did but can't ensure my answer will be right or wrong...
so,i was exited and enjoyed the period to write essay...
tomorrow is hit's day?don't know is it right or wrong...i will participating in the competition for throw ball?haha...''lontar peluru''...leg's activities i can't but hand's,it's much easier for me!
what is the rate for me to win?i think is low!no confidence to myself...
now i was planning a lot of works to do in next week...play badminton,shopping,watch movie,sing k and so on...but need a lot of money too...how??my favourite is sing k!a long long period for me never sing at Greenbox/Redbox/Neway!although i sang at home...but i got no feeling...i want to sing TVXQ's songs...there might have many new songs already!i'll sing ''last angel'',''unforgettable'',''begin'' and ''MIROTIC''!liked open a mini concert for TVXQ!haha!
last week,i watched ALL ENGLAND BADMINTON OPEN 2009 on CH811...i was screaming a lot!it's a way for me to release my stress...haha!when LIN DAN vs LEE chong wei,i noticed that LEE can't win LIN!he got his marks if and only if LIN made mistake!where were LEE's techniques?LIN smashed strongly,LEE cannot received this service!but LEE smashed,LIN can did it!OMG...although LEE is ranking no.1 in the world,but LIN still can handle him very much!LIN really improving all the time...China's players also,but others...-_-
their spirit to fight are stronger than others all the time when i watched it!
compared to me,i was damn foolish...i got no strong spirit in my mental!i always want to get out of this stressful and suffer life...so,yesterday...during my muet 3 exam:reading comprehension,there were 2 passage about how we view the stress and how we deal with our fears...i was interested with it!liked something is set for me...haha!impossible la!after i read the passages,i thought i really realised a lot...''LOOK FOR THE GOOD INSTEAD OF THE BAD IN SITUATION''~wow!it was meaningful...stress was a good thing to us to change!it can force us to be doing things more success...i really need to study to deal with it...if not,i really going to be insane...in future!

hacked by韩流！

赵寅成，影帝

金范,新进演员

实力非凡的东方神起

才智双全的羽球新星李龙大

进这两年开始开始崇拜韩国明星，歌星甚至体坛新星！

自从喜欢东方神起后，渐渐发现韩国男人们都有各自特殊味道~

他们的笑容，眼神都很会杀人！这里是一些证物...

虽然听不懂他们的语言~但也无所谓~

我以后可能会嫁给韩国人？哈哈！

其他方面，我好想自甘堕落一番又或者能让我放纵自己！

可是需要钱~我又没钱！怎么办？

那些可也可以不要那么多吗？读到很辛苦咧！

反正以后生活里都没什么机会用到的！政府现在好像又动荡~

人民对政府还满失望的！最后还是用钱来解决一些问题！

搞到你恨我，我恨你~又游行等等~

外国看了都不敢来！他们的政治处理得很‘干净’！

正在与痛苦挣扎~

救命！病了整个礼拜！出猪毛丹！
这次病到最严重的一次！可能把我身体的技能破坏了！现在考着试！
超级痛苦！可能因为自己想不开，又固执！结果我的头脑好像不能function了！
不能思考！记不到资料！好害怕！
我一直处于放空的状态！
是否发高烧到脑细胞也被烧死了？很担忧！
我的心跳一直都跳得很快！然后头有隐隐作痛！就整天处于紧张的状态！
oh my god~i hope examinations season can be over immediately!and even STPM also can passing dashly!
我真得很想去一个没有烦恼的地方！
可以不用吃~不用脑！就任自己放纵！超想回到以前那癫癫废废的日子！
我觉得自己好像患上忧郁症！但又会快乐噢？跟朋友聊天的时候啦~
还有就是看戏和去东方神起的论坛时才能找到乐子！
老天爷~请您救救我的脑吧！还有我那脆弱的心灵！
使我自己想考好成绩可是又懒惰！我只会想但不会实行！
每次都要拖到最后那时才在那里穷紧张和害怕！唉！我好想放假呀！
只期盼下个星期四的到来！啊！
超级讨厌自己！只想着娱乐！又像逃离这世界的feel！
我仿佛没有了人生目标！只想时间快快过！
应该是因为我的生活太无趣了！
so terrible and horrible!time...i waiting you to be pass immediately!
you are the main fact that made me crazy or insane!everything seem like too rush!because i was the one who wanted to rush~especially the exam time!as well as it was over and i didn't mind or care about my result!if gained zeroes...what can i do?just regret la...after it i start again my struggling life~doing procrastination again...
can i get out of this dull and boring lifestyle...i damn wishing i can hiding myself and looking for a place liked世外桃源的乡村~
nobody can help me and encourage me...y?i lost my heart...and mind?is going to be mad hatter!

boring and tired but a bit exited...^^

yesterday assembly really gave me a shock!haha...my president called me suddenly bcoz he was sick and I was needed to b stg liked MC!OMG...I never prepared before,moreover,the vice predsident was writing the ''brain storming'' to me only during that time...my brain was a piece of white paper!I was too nervous if I really need to speak in front of 1200++ students & teachers!but,luckily,one of the teachers came out suddenly so,she bcame the MC...Gob bless me!haha~then,I juz returned to my class' queing line...after it,I juz following the studies n finally I can go back to my warmed-house...but,I didn't bring my keys n I noticed it only when I take out my keys to unlock the doors...OMG!I disappointed for wat I have been done...it's funny!my mum asked me tiz morning about the keys but I juz answered it simply!finally,I juz went to my brother's ''nai ma'' house n wait my mum...
I was in hurry tiz early morning since I nid to make annoucement!unfortunately,my teacher advisor haven't reach to the skul!so,I juz refered to another teacher,Pn.Khadizah.But she was not good in her English so she asked me to check wif my MUET teacher,Pn Khoon...consequently,I went to find Mr.Chin to get his signature n he help me to correct my poor English~thanks ya!^^finally n finally,my announcement made successfully!it's trouble for tat 2 sentences only!later,I still following the studies again...''ring,ring,ring...''schooling time was over!but I was too busy during tat time for Koperasi!the crowd of students stayed in the Sport's Room,juz want to purchase their own house T-shirt during the last period b4 Sukan Tara!i juz wondering why r they delayed until the end only entered here n purchased the shirts!Suat Yih n I were late already!v change our shirts immediately~luckily,the events haven't start yet!n Li Wah oso wif us after having her sweet lunch~she said I was mocking her about her lunch time!haha^^then,I found my Loke Yew House by the side of the field~the students who wearing the yellow-T were lesser compared to the others~I started to run for 100m,but I failed...I guess already b4 I ran!I was looking for someone afterward...hehe!I found already finally when I returnes to the terrace~!but green-T...aren't Loke Yew was yellow?don't think so much!mayb dislike yellow liked me...but my surname was ''yellow''...v were ordered to the place for long jumping~n nobody wif the green-T...I sympathised the green-T!so,I juz starting to focus on the green-T!finally,I saw the green-T did the long jump...I considered was failed too~although the green-T liked sunshine B.I was enjoying during tat time...is stg wrong wif me!hahaha...I took LRT wif Zhu Jun n went back together~it was a long period for me to take LRT again.suddenly,the weather changed n the thunderstormed-raining started!both of us felt frightened n a bit cold~v standing there 4 omost 30 minutes!I took out all the wet shirts from the outside when I reached home...how responsible I was...hahaha^^i was insane a bit starting from yesterday bcoz I can watch my admired artist-Ron Ng again in Astro-On-Demand!yeah!that's all for these 2 days~

农历新年就酱过了！

新年的假期已来到最后一天~

未免也太快了吧！

真是快乐的日子很快就溜走了；相反的，煎熬的日子却一秒如年般过！

最终我还是没有回家乡,所以红包钱自然也缩了不少！哎！没法子咯~+.+

昨天去了佛光山东禅寺！去时交通流畅怎知回的时候，一路塞着回呀！

做到屁股都痛了！赫赫！^^因为后座位子有限，我，外婆与妈妈，再加上弟弟和表妹！他们也渐渐地长大了嘛！

哪里有一座三十尺高大的牛~是DUTCH LADY赞助的吧？牛头会转~

一到哪里就马上去医肚子！吃了个很像鸡饭的素鸡饭~要五令吉！因为一部分的钱要来做建造费用咯！要不那头牛从哪儿来呢？嘻嘻！

后来排了整三十分钟的队，是为了要看琉璃展！雕的都是佛像哦！还有千手千眼观音呢！

个个都价值不菲呢！最便宜都上百了，最贵的要几十万呢！可以买房子了~

过后我好奇的去数了千手千眼观音，没错的话/没眼花的话，有四十二只手与眼~

之后，节目开始了!二十四节令鼓最为震撼！主持人说是震动人心的震！

终于天色已黑，等也亮了起来！一瞬间，所有的东西活了起来！哈哈！有点夸啦~

回家之前，我们还去牛那儿转了一圈！正所谓扭转乾坤吧！

刚吃了素的我们还觉得有些饿，所以就去吃宵夜！怎知找了半个钟有余，档口都是关的，可能是因为人日吧...

终于，我们还是找到了！距离那当口的不远处的天线上，会看到一排排都是燕子在那里睡觉！若把车子停泊在那儿，准备中头奖和洗车吧！

冲凉后，觉得超冷的！躺在床上又会想起除夕夜的大家！

那天我们当然有吃团圆饭啦！我的小表妹还穿上旗袍，好不可爱呢！于是我就立刻叫它摆出各种姿势，再拍下来！赫赫！

这次的新年过得不过瘾！因为没玩烟花！！！那些冲天炮还是什么，都没玩到呀！再说又没赌到钱！只是帮家人玩！
但最后只玩到一点点！就是有十三位同学来我家拜年啦！停留到下雨过后才回！我们还叫皮萨吃！好久没吃了呢！只见当然有赌少少钱~怎只玩到把桌子弄翻了！超劲爆！其实一早都烂了的~

同学们走时竟然把那些礼都留在我家！结果顿时多了二十粒柑！怎么吃得完！

到了下午六点，我们就立刻去冲凉再换上漂亮的衣裳~哈哈！因为有晚宴！还去到PJ的蟹皇酒楼吃呢！我把握了高歌几曲的机会！唱到十点多才回！很多顾客都走了呢！

我们还去看那些龙虾，象蚌，蜘蛛蟹和一些鱼~又看到老板和明星们的照片！有胡杏儿，郑嘉颖，AMBER CHIA等等~可是我觉得没什么特别好吃的~可能是因为没叫那些山珍海味吧？

明天又要开学了！我又得过回痛苦的日子了！

Chinese New Year is coming soon~

i was free for a week now~just because of cny!

but need to replace the school days!

i really hope that can get a lot of ''ang pow'',so i can buy something...hehe!

or may be pay some fees~

i damn angry with my mum's boss!he was too stingy!what the...!and what kind of human being!

early of January,he took out his money and paid to suppliers or banks!and my mum was noticed that she'll not getting any bonus this year!!!why he never take care of his worker!
finally,he just gave a little ''ang pow'' to my mum only!how sad was my mum!she was working there for 15 years already!haiz...boss!too intelligent??although he know,but he willing to do this bad things!and my mum was too disappointed until cried yesterday!

fine,it's enough!how about my problems?my aunt was calling to go back to hometown!

but,my mum was not agree!she said they never take care of us...what for we going back?

but in my opinion,i going back just for ''ang pow''!haha!it's realistic!i just in need with money!

so,what should i do?

i bought a watch this morning.but my goal was a pair of high-heel shoes...haha!RM59.90!so,i give up!after it,i saw a ''CK'' watch,the promoters force me to buy!i aimed one of them already,but where is my mum?she was looking for her shirts only...then,she realised that i wanna buy a watch and it was not worth for it's price!so she started to scold me!OMG...how embarrassed i was during that time...i still bought it in the end!^^